Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Playhouse Disney

The TV certainly has big effects on the kids. Xuan learnt most of her English from there. Sometimes she really surprises me with sentences which I've never use. Instead of saying "Do you need my help?", Xuan said "Do you need a hand?" Instead of saying "Are you ready?", Xuan said "Are you done yet?" I attribute these to the Playhouse Disney that she watches everyday, especially Mickey Mouse Clubhouse.

Tomorrow, she will be changing her nursery from Tumble Tots to PCF. She has just gotten used to Tumble Tots and now we are changing her to another school. Anyway, it is better to change her now than to wait till she is in K1 cos' Tumble Tots does not have Kindergarten. I am expecting the same episode of excitement follow by withdrawal a week later. Let's see!
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Saturday, January 27, 2007

Sick again

Xuan went to the doctor again. It has became a routine. For three consecutive Fridays, she has been patronising the Singapore Baby and Child Clinic at Ang Mo Kio. It is still about cough. There were also many red spots on her face. She has became skinnier. I feel sad for her.

Tonight we are going to celebrate her 4th birthday. Just a small celebration with family. The celebration is brought forward as 29th falls on a Monday. I hope Xuan's 4th birthday will bring her good luck, great health and happiness for the rest of the year. I really hope.

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Friday, January 19, 2007

Reject school

Xuan started to reject school on the 9th day. That was a Monday and I left her at Tumble Tots as usual. We waved goodbye before I went to shop around the mall. Half an hour later, I popped by to check on her, only to see her sitting on the teacher's lap. The teacher was holding a piece of tissue and wiping tears on Xuan's cheeks. The first thought that came to my mind was that she had a fall. Upon seeing me through the glass door, Xuan burst into tears. She cried and asked where I had gone to, and demanded that I sit outside the room to watch her and not go around shopping. After that day, I had a hard time getting her up from bed and dressing her up for school.

Xuan is sick again. She didn't go to school today. She has been complaining of pain. Pain everywhere - the chest, eyes, tummy, nose, buttocks, legs, elbow... Last night, she ran a high fever of 39 degree Celsius. So I brought her to the PD again today. She has just recovered from her cough and I had to pray "please, not again!" At the doctor's office, she told the doctor that she had pain everywhere, and at the end of the examination, as we were about to leave the room, she told the doctor "But... you forgot to give me a sweet!" Sigh!
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Monday, January 15, 2007

Before I became a mum

Now, my own version of becoming a mum...

Before I became a mum
I could draw, knit, crochet and do the things I like
I could catch all the TV serials and snack in front of the TV
I could go out with friends and stay out late
I could sleep through the nights and have complete dreams
I could wake up late and enjoy afternoon naps

Before I became a mum
I didn't have to spring up from bed to check on the slightest squirms
I didn't have to arch my back to rock a sleepy baby and suffer painful wrist and aching back
I didn't have to gobble my food and rush through my meals or even choke on food
I didn't have to run away from people who cough or worry that I'd get sick and pass on the virus to the kids
I didn't have to make so many arrangements so that I can go out with a peace of mind
I didn't have to rush through my shopping and be the first to leave on any outing
I didn't have to watch the ticking clock and leave the office on the dot

Before I became a mum
I didn't understand the devastation of a parent whose child fall sick
I never know I'd feel so miserable when I couldn't ease the pain of a suffering kid
I never know I'd hold on to a child, kiss him and hug him so dearly

Before I became a mum
I never know a simple grin could melt my heart
I never never know I'd get so gloriously happy when the child enjoy my play and tricks
I didn't know that a mother's emotion is solely determined by the kids'

Before I became a mum
I never know how special a mother can be
I didn't know it is so wonderful to become a mum

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Friday, January 12, 2007

Before I was a mum

Just to share this piece with all great mothers and friends... read on. Retrieved from

Before I was a Mum I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mum - I had never been puked on, pooped on, chewed on, peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mum I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mum I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mum.

Before I was a Mum - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mum - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mum.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mum.
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Saturday, January 6, 2007


Xuan started coughing after her first day at school. I wonder if it was that boy who kissed her that passed on the virus to her. I saw his runny mucus dripping from his nostrils when he gave Xuan the peck. Anyway it is pointless to identify the culprit now that she is already coughing. The cough was tough on her. She cried a lot and kept asking me why she coughed and when will her cough go away. It was painful for me to see her in this state. I was caught in a dilemma. On one hand, I wanted to shower her with as much care and concern; on the other, I have to keep a distance away from her as I don't want Kai to get the cough. Last night, her cough changed from bad to worse. She coughed the whole night. So this morning, her dad brought her to the pediatrician again. Upon seeing the doctor, Xuan said "Hello Doctor Yip, my cough is very bad, please help me." Poor thing, I hope she will get well soon.

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Wednesday, January 3, 2007

First day @school

Xuan was excited about school. Last night, she carried her pink school bag packed with a green bottle, a pink mitten, two number blocks ("9" and "5") and stood in front of the window, looking at her own reflection. "My name is Rui Xuan. I am going to school!" I overheard.

This morning I woke her up at 7.30am, made her finish her milk and some biscuits before setting off to Tumbletots (Rightstart II) at Punggol Plaza. There were only 5 children in the class. I'm not sure if it is a bad sign.

Xuan is a bit shy by nature and not physically active compared to children of her age. I was expecting some kind of tantrums or crying spells when she stepped into class. But to my relieve, she was coping well. I did not even have to be present. I went around shopping, occasionally popping by to see how she was coping. I saw her talking to the teacher assistant while the Chinese teacher was conducting the lessons. Once in a while, I stepped into the class to observe her. Xuan became very kaypo when she saw another classmate holding a green bottle and started telling her that she also has a green bottle.

During the physical play, both Xuan and a boy wanted the green ball. The teacher had to ask them to close their eyes to pick the balls so that they don't fight over the green one. Xuan was lucky to pick the green ball with her closed eyes. I wondered if she play cheat. Anyway, the boy was unhappy to have picked a blue ball and insisted on the green one. So the teacher negotiated with Xuan who generously gave up her green ball. At the end of the 2-hour lesson, the teacher asked everyone to hug and wave goodbye. Xuan hugged a boy who gave her a peck on her cheek. It was the same boy who took her green ball!

Overall, she was excited about school and happy in class. But when I asked her what she has learnt, she said she don't know. The entire 2-hour lesson was conducted in Mandarin. No wonder!
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Monday, January 1, 2007

New year

2006 has passed. Today is the start of a new year. Last night, Xuan and I counted down to 2007 together with the Mediacorp artistes - on Channel 5, in front of the TV! We shouted "10, 9, 8... 1" and cheered. Then I gave Xuan a big hug and wished her great health, happiness and a very happy new year. But I don't think she knew what I was mumbling.

As for Kai, the new year seems to have a special effect on him. This morning, he woke up to the new year without any smile. Tm jokingly said that Kai's new year resolution is "to be more serious"! The PR king is not so PR now. He even wanted to cry when a passerby greeted him at the foodcourt just now. I certainly hope he will resume his PR skills soon.

I wish the 2 kids safe, healthy and happy in the new year and throughout their growing years.

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